Daily Dish of Dominey Design
{  February 4, 2003  }

I Have A Dream

For nearly ten years now, I've been periodically assaulted by an odd dream involving college. Not the college I attended per se, but just some random collegiate environment. None of my college friends are there, or any of my Professors (at least ones I remember). What is there is the familiar process of registering for classes at the beginning of a new semester.

In every one of these dreams, I register for my classes, and am handed a dot-matrix sheet of paper listing my enrolled courses, the days and times they meet, the professors' names, and which buildings I report to. I then take out a day timer of some sort and translate the dotted character acronyms to plain readable English.

Biology 201 / Tuesday, Thursday / 4:00pm - 6:00pm / Mr. Hide / Some Benefactor Science Building South

We then fast forward about six weeks into the semester. Sitting in a classroom, I reach into my backpack to find something and run across that old dot matrix printout of my classes. My initial reaction is to toss it, for we were well into the semester and I no longer needed the info, but I unfold the paper to look at it anyway. To my shock and horror, there is one class listed I failed to record in my calendar.

Perhaps I was distracted. Perhaps a friend walked by and said 'hello' right when I was supposed to write that class down and I accidentally skipped it.

Whatever the cause, I had completely failed to show up for said class for nearly two months.

By now, I must have an F in the class. My GPA would be wrecked. But...I never showed up for it. Perhaps the Professor assumed I dropped the course and removed my name from the roll-call. Do I suddenly show up for a class all this time later and act like nothing happened, or do I wait until the very end of the semester when I receive the F, and plead complete ignorance to have it removed from my transcript?

Besides, what fool registers for a class and fails to show up without realizing their mistake earlier?

Why in the world this dream returns every few months, nearly ten years after I graduated from College, is beyond me.

Comments

take two aspirin and call me in the morning : )

Posted by: robert at February 4, 2003 11:15 AM

I have had this same dream twice now (I graduated school last May). So you are not alone in your curiousity. Bring on the explanations!

Posted by: Matt at February 4, 2003 11:26 AM

Whoa. I have almost the same dream once in awhile. Except that mine usually occurs towards the end of the semester, and I haven't done any work yet. I get that panic feeling too. And Ive been out of school for almost 3 years. Hmmm, must mean something.

Posted by: Jim Connolly at February 4, 2003 11:29 AM

I have a similar one, involving my car breaking down on the way to 'A' Level exams, which i sat in 1994. I always took it that dreams like this are symptomatic of anxiety about something current, filtered through past causes of worry. Assuming dreams mean anything at all...

Posted by: Jack at February 4, 2003 11:32 AM

Wooo.. Reading that was like Deja vu. The best part is waking up in a panic thinking, "Was that real?"..

Posted by: Chris at February 4, 2003 11:38 AM

That is amazing that so many people have had such similar dreams... I too had de ja vu reading that, Sans the dot matrix read out, I too have had dreams that I missed most of a semester of class somehow and don't know how to fix the situation and end up waking up stressed out. I have been out of school for 4 years. How funny is the internet, to find out that several other people have the same type of dream,makes me feel better, I guess it is a similar situation/concern burned into all our psyche.

Posted by: Anthony at February 4, 2003 11:44 AM

I have this often too....as a matter of fact, I had it last night!

My dream never goes through the class registration, but I always come to realize that I have not attended class for a long time and I can't remember what day and time it meets.

It must be a sign of high intelligence. :)

Posted by: Jeff Hartman at February 4, 2003 12:12 PM

Maybe it means you are destined to develop a registration technology for post-secondary institututions that allows students to register for courses online, get approval and download the schedule into their PDA of choice, thus assuring that no well wired student will ever miss a class do to an error of record.

Or not...

Posted by: Clint at February 4, 2003 12:41 PM

Add me to the list of people who have had the same dream. Mine usually involves an English class, or some other "core" curriculum class that must be taken to graduate, and I'm taking it in the last couple of semesters before graduation. Fully into my major classes, but with this one remaining "core" class that, for whatever reason, I've failed to show up for since the first day.

Only once, in the many times I've had this dream, did I actually venture into the classroom, half-way through the lecture, after weeks and weeks of pulling a no-show. It was there that I woke up.

I believe it has something to do with my fear of confrontation and my tendency to procrastinate. But what do I know? ;-)

Posted by: Bob at February 4, 2003 12:43 PM

Count me in! And I graduated college in 1986. Must be some symbol of insecurity, being afraid of not being prepared. I dream that I'm in school and know I should be in a class, one that I don't particularly like, but I never go to the room or can't find the room, never do the homework, and worry about how it will affect my grade. Are we worried that our careers aren't going as planned and that we should be doing something we're not? Wish I would go back to the flying dreams, they were much more fun...

Posted by: Lauri at February 4, 2003 12:44 PM

I also have a similar recurring dream in which I keep forgetting to go to my algebra class. I finally attend after weeks of missing and am totally lost, but it doesn't seem to matter. The worst part of the dream is the panic attack when I realize I have forgotten to attend.

Posted by: britt at February 4, 2003 12:45 PM

I just talked to a co-worker and she also has similar dreams quite often.

Posted by: britt at February 4, 2003 12:50 PM

I have a very similar dream, but it involves my high school classes, probably because I can barely remember how we chose what classes we took in high school. I always end up not having gone to any of my Physics classes. It's funny that my brain chooses that class though, since that is the one I'll never forget because I had it 9th period and on the last day of school, everyone who had study hall got to get out early and we were stuck inside (but it was a fun class with a good teacher, so we weren't too upset).

Posted by: Stefanie at February 4, 2003 1:26 PM

And does anyone have the dream that they forgot to put on their pants?


Uh....me neither.

Posted by: Jeff Hartman at February 4, 2003 1:45 PM

Wow Todd. I have to mirror the comments others have made here. I have a similar dream, every few months. Only variation is that in my dream I somehow end up "in the future", and my degree is being yanked because I never finished up that class, and therefore never obtained all the credits I needed to graduate.

Maybe you'll get a psychologist visitor and they can read your post and our coments and help us all out...

Posted by: Rob at February 4, 2003 2:01 PM

I have a very similar dream once in a while, only mine is high school. Weird

Posted by: Brian at February 4, 2003 2:37 PM

Yes, I too have this dream, but in mine, it's always an obscure math class that I've registered for and forgotten about.

Why math? I did well in math in high school, but it always did seem like a "forgettable" subject.

Posted by: Luke Andrews at February 4, 2003 2:45 PM

I've been teaching in universities for six+ years now and can report that the person on the other side of the podium has the same dream. Only the class in question is one you were supposed to teach but haven't gone to for the entire semester.

Which is just about completely unintelligible.

Posted by: Michael Green at February 4, 2003 2:48 PM

Yup, I have variations on that same dream: in mine, I have to return to college (high school in one iteration) to take a class that was "forgotten" for some reason. If I don't re-take the class they will 'pull' my diploma. Ack! The worst part of the dream is realizing that I'm like 10-15 years older than everyone in the class...I feel like such a loser!

I think this is a universal fear built-in to the college process. What could be worse at school?

I also think that time of our lives was so formative to who we became as adults that our brains make those memories pretty vivid. Depending on which theory of dreams you subscribe to, if our brains are 'combing through' & randomly picking all your memories when we sleep (strongest experiences/fears bubble to the top), this could explain why we have similar recurrences of that...nameless fear...of class... =)

Posted by: R. A. White at February 4, 2003 4:04 PM

Yup, I have variations on that same dream: in mine, I have to return to college (high school in one iteration) to take a class that was "forgotten" for some reason. If I don't re-take the class they will 'pull' my diploma. Ack! The worst part of the dream is realizing that I'm like 10-15 years older than everyone in the class...I feel like such a loser!

I think this is a universal fear built-in to the college process. What could be worse at school?

I also think that time of our lives was so formative to who we became as adults that our brains make those memories pretty vivid. Depending on which theory of dreams you subscribe to, if our brains are 'combing through' & randomly picking all your memories when we sleep (strongest experiences/fears bubble to the top), this could explain why we have similar recurrences of that...nameless fear...of class... =)

Posted by: R. A. White at February 4, 2003 4:04 PM

Way too strange. I have that dream, at least a very, very similar quite a lot -- mostly related to high school. Lots of times I've for whatever reason been avoiding the class, not forgetting really, until it's too late to catch up.

Wonder what it means.

Then again, there is the dream when I'm late to the discussion on What do I Know?

Posted by: Keith at February 4, 2003 4:17 PM

if you don't mind messing with yourself (not in that way) you might want to try manipulating your dream.

there's a technique anyone can master called lucid dreaming. the quickest and easeist way to get started with lucid dreaming is to constantly ask yourself during the day "is what i see real?" for instance, look at your coke can in front of you and say to yourself "is that reall a coke or pepsi" as you look away, look back and it'll be a coke can still.

in the dream world nothing is material so this means everything is completely dynamic, thinking of your coke can being something else can cause it to become something else. getting to this level in your dreams will take awhile but once you get there there won't be any limit to what you can change.

your dream world will become your own matrix per se. you can fly around admiring the landscape, eat cookies, beat up people, or make sweet sweet lovin. you'll realize your dreaming of course since it's lucid dreaming but the sensations and feelings will be there.

normally it's much to hard to dream yourself into a horrible position (such as the gpa thing) so i wouldn't even worry about something like that. if any of you have done this before (i've done it before i knew what i was doing, accidently) i'd like to hear about it :-)

thats all i have to say.

Posted by: steven at February 4, 2003 4:32 PM

The dream shows you your motivation.

... at least that's what my psych says.

Yes. I'm serious.

I've had similar experiences, but they effect me much more drastically. I dream I'm drowning, so I stop breathing - that sort of thing. Sitting in the park I start wanting to break down and cry (I've 'dreamed' of just getting the news that my family died in a car accident...)

So - back to the point: my psychologist says that it shows me two things about myself - the habit I've developed that allows me to prepare for circumstances by 'dreaming' them as if they were real, and that I'm motivated in life by what I'm afraid of.

Obviously being motivated by fear is something I'm trying to get past. I try to find the good in every possible situation, and focus on that to motivate me.

I've found that when I focus on the good, my life becomes clear and my motives stronger. Basically I get more done, and feel better about what I've done.

Anyway... my .02 ...

Posted by: Brent at February 4, 2003 5:00 PM

Todd & everyone here, this really creeps me out. I constantly have a dream (more of an overwhelming feeling than a didactic string of events) that I didn't finish one of my English components in school. I know that this isn't true, because I finished all of my undergrad basics at the local junior college before I went to art school, but it always happens. To boot, I have my masters degree, and there are times when I feel like I missed an English class getting my MFA, and I didn't even have to TAKE English while getting my MFA! For what its worth, I still owe the Univ $5 so I don't have my MFA diploma...yet.

Posted by: Andrew at February 4, 2003 5:25 PM

I can understand the oddity of your dreams, but the whole "dot matrix" part eludes me. This is probably a result of just entering college, and attending a college whose registration is completely electronic.

I can, however, understand the fear of accidently never attending a single class. Of course, I'm sure that the differences between missing a lecture entirely and day-dreaming during the lecture are very subtle.

I cannot say I've had any similiar dreams, mainly because it has been two or three years since I've knowingly dreamed regularly (except since coming to school, but even then they are fairly spread apart). I've also never had any recurring dreams. For a while, the lack of dreaming scared me a little, but then I just decided that I must do all my dreaming during the day and actually sleep at night.

Posted by: Marshall at February 4, 2003 5:41 PM

Todd,

This one's easy. It has nothing to do with college. It represents beginnings, desires, control. After all, a dream is an unconscious wish.

So basically, you're all rolling, into something, doing all well, and you find out that you're missing something. And to top it off, it is your fault. You blame yourself. And the fact that you are focusing on trying to fix the problem (do I go to the class, do I do this or that) says that you are missing the message in the dream. Its point isn't to get you to save your GPA -- if anything, your focusing on that is a problem. Your key is to find out what you in your life forgot to do. And to accept that it was your fault. You did it, and that hurts. But you can get past that, move on, and start doing what it is that you are missing.

See college clearly sticks in your brain as the "big important thing and world." It is a place deep with possible symbolic meaning: formative years, clashes of all these young folks of different backgrounds and interests...who am I, who are they, this guy is already a Physics ace, oh wait, he's a spoiled rich kid, what am I going to do, etc etc...

I do also want to note that the correct info was on a printer, and you messed up when you wrote by hand. Maybe you stick to this computer stuff because you think it is the right thing to do, when deep down, you want to do something old-world (art, writing, crafts, who knows), but you fear that if you do it, you will fail, it will lack the very perfection and logic that you value in the digital world. But all along, it is perfect because what you really want is human...it is you.

Hope this helps,
Beastmaster

Posted by: Beastmaster at February 4, 2003 5:54 PM

Too sick! I almost got a panic attack just reading that. Similar dream, etc.
Mine was an obscure math class.
(I was a math major, not that I remember much of it now anyway - though I surprise myself once in a while...)

The best explanation was given by my fiance:
Fear of/and Procrastination & not meeting your self-perception.
I am obsessivly clean and organized and this dream has to do with maintaining that fascade at a fundamental level. Also, relates to how you want to be percieved by others, self image, etc.
It usually happens when I have unchecked email, thank-you notes to do, household chores and too many side projects.
Despite my best efforts at multitaksing, I'm still disappointed often doing one thing at a time. My problem: relax and do that thing. Do it well, then do another.
For me, it's the end of story.

Posted by: Benjamin at February 4, 2003 6:00 PM

You're lucky that you can wake up and dismiss the whole thing as impossible. I'm in my last semester of college right now, and I regularly have this dream.

I'm currently in my fourth week of classes for this semester, and I'm still checking my schedule at least once a day to make sure I'm not forgetting about a class. It's creepy.

Posted by: Mike at February 4, 2003 6:04 PM

I have had that same dream, too. Scariest one in my sub-conciousness' repetoire, just ahead of going to work as a UI designer for MS-DOS applications. "Stupid huge pixels!"

Posted by: John Buzzell at February 4, 2003 6:20 PM

Putting on my worst mad german scientist accent:
Interesting! wevy, wevy interesting. You rrall say you hrad ralmost identical drrrrrrreams. Now everybody lay down plrrrease. I wrrrrill now drill a hrrole in your hrreads and have a look.

Posted by: Daysleeper at February 4, 2003 6:27 PM

I have lucid dreams on occasion. It's neat to realize I'm dreaming and change things at will. The most memorable ones are when I'm flying and I can consciously change direction, rolling and turning inside a building and around people. Usually though, the lucid dreams are too fun and I wake up in a short time and lose it. Maybe lucid dreams are halfway conscious and therefore delicate. When I was a kid, I heard about how to remember my dreams and about lucid dreaming so that's probably why I remember more dreams than the guy who thinks he doesn't dream at all. He does, he just doesn't remember them.

Posted by: Lauri at February 4, 2003 6:47 PM

Moi aussi, except it's math at university. Strange, considering I'm an English major that graduated almost a decade ago. Still wakes me in a panic.

Posted by: Daejin at February 4, 2003 7:10 PM

i've never had that dream, although i did almost flunk a class due to the professor mistaking me with someone else! interestingly enough, it was a pass/fail class, and when i went to the department head to clear everything up, he sadi he'd deal with it. i got my grades in the mail, and had received a B... in a pass/fail class!

Posted by: the urban matador at February 4, 2003 8:06 PM

Steven has a great point. More or less every time I've dreamed in the past few years (that I remembered, at least), I've known I was dreaming. If you know, you can have a great time -- let loose, do the stuff you ordinarily wouldn't do. What you've got to do is balance the line between knowing you're dreaming and knowing you're awake, because once you realize it's a dream, you're dangerously close to waking up. Knowledge is bad.

However, if you realize you're dreaming, you can also control the dream, anything that happens. The Matrix-esque implications are glorious.

Posted by: Brandon at February 4, 2003 8:47 PM

On the lucid dreaming tip - I have those fairly often, say once or twice a month. Funny thing is lots of times I'm doing things that would scare the beeeeeejesus! out of me. Like flying. I hate to fly, or be disconnected from the ground in most ways.

Chairlifts, for example, scare the crap out of me -- even though I'm on them all the time and have been for many, many years.

But, in my dreams, the lucid dreams in perticular -- I fly all the time and all over the place, and I love it. It's my favorite thing to do, soar from place to place, checking things out.

I've always found that very odd. Good. But odd.

Posted by: Keith at February 4, 2003 10:37 PM

That, uh, Beastmaster guy seems to sum up the meaning. So all of you guys with this dream maybe should give it a look-see.

Posted by: Lea at February 4, 2003 11:25 PM

I've never understood why people look so hard into the meaning of dreams. Even with a sleeping disorder, I never cared where my dreams came from until I woke up on a concrete slab after sleepwalking/jumping from a 2nd floor window. I broke both my heels - couldn't work for 2 months.

Since then, my response towards traumatic events has lessened to the point of indifference. If I don't do react in an extreme way in real life, then my dreams become less hazardous (when sleepwalking). In your case, you're fear/insecurities/whatever occasionally fuel your dreams. My dreams have altered the way I live. Very Donnie Darko...

Posted by: urbandude at February 5, 2003 1:05 AM

Wow that is a creepy dream. I'm going to think about that one when I enroll for Spring classes. Thanks for making me even more paranoid.

On a side note, I kinda miss the dot matrix class print-outs. At UCLA they do everything online so enrollment day loses a bit of its zest. That and I have to burn more of my toner printing out the schedule...

Posted by: webspiffy at February 5, 2003 3:34 AM

Yeah...been there. Except in my college dreams, it's that I somehow forgot my pants. And it seems to be something I'm really having a problem trying to remedy. I'm this poor college student who is having a very difficult time remembering his pants -- I'm afraid to go to bed at night!
Pretty spooky...

Posted by: Doy at February 5, 2003 9:16 AM

I have this dream all the time, too. Although I'm usually back in high school. Not young, though. It's like I forgot to take a class that I needed and have had to go back as an adult. And I miss it again. What does Mr. Freud say about this?

Posted by: james at February 5, 2003 3:47 PM

Not much I can say that hasn't already been said, but I wanted to add myself to the total. So: me, too!

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